presentation ;-------------------------;
macam biasalah si budak yang mempunyai anxiety menebal ini bila musim presentation, she got terrified a lot. Secebis disorder dalam dirinya reacted. Fikir sana sini tak berhenti henti, lutut ketak, suara starting to making its own disgusting melody, jantung thumping hard, barely can breath well and lack of good sleep. Worrying all day 24 hours. huhu
Lagi lagi bila nama group naik as the first group to present. And untuk mengelat, aku sengaja suruh group members datang kuliah lewat sikit like around 30 minutes late. Sir wouldnt wait for us untuk present, kan? Mestilah dia suruh an available group to present first. Takkanlah dia nak tunggu half an hour sebab nak sangat group kitorang present dulu? No one know us anyway. hopefully.
How I wish I could act the way i talk to people during presentation like, hey kau cakap dengan manusia jugak kot masa presentation, what makes you got scared? Basically nothing but the fear of making mistakes and embrassment of doing wrong things infront bunch of people does disturbing me. Kalau takut can make me do better tak apalah. But this, when I got scared, I tend to make more mistakes.
Salah pronounciation lah, bercakap dalam kelajuan 3000km/hours lah, tersedaklah, suara starting to bergetarlah, trembling and so on which are obviously obvious! aduh can someone help me? hahahahaha
yep no pills needed as the consultant said pills of losing my anxiety doesnt help much, it doesnt cure me at all. If im starting to taking pills, that will affect me directly in the future. kang ada yang tak boleh keluar rumah without pills. sebab benda tu boleh bantu about an hour or two lepas tu back to normal life lah. Tapi kalau ambil masa presentation je ok kan? hahahaha ok forget it.
wish me luck. tinggal satu je presentation yang menakutkan. kbai